30 | November | 2012

We’re approaching Christmas and like the Magi travelling from afar, members of the WordPress community have visited bearing gifts. Today I graciously thank Glorious Mettle, a talented artist and designer for the Sensual Blogging Award.

I should be totally candid and explain at this point that I’ve never thought of myself as very sensual being. It’s the geek in me; logic, reason, rationales and all that jazz. It’s also true that this year’s events have sometimes left me feeling more like Beaker, Dr Bunsen Honeydew’s long suffering assistant than a woman in the prime of her life. I tend to write from experience, sometimes real, sometimes imagined; when I’m able to write with emotion it’s because I know how that ‘thing’ feels to me – joy, sorrow, frustration, hilarity, shock, elation. I try to describe experiences through my senses; images, smells, sounds, tastes. I’m not sure I’m good at it because the geek tends to struggle with anything more stimulating than OWASP standards but hopefully it’s enough to qualify as a sensual blogger.

So here are the rules:

Visit and thank the blogger who nominated you.
Acknowledge that blogger on your blog and link back.
Answer 7 sensual questions.
Select some nominees and notify them on their blogs.
Copy and paste the award on your blog.

Answers to the seven questions:

Most romantic memory? The first time I was given flowers (and every time since).

Most sensual music? All About Eve – Martha’s Harbour and Judy Tzuke – Stay With Me ‘Til Dawn and Crowded House – Fall At Your Feet

Most sensual season? Winter – the sudden switch from icy cold outside to toasty warm inside. The lights of a Christmas market, the aroma of cinnamon and nutmeg, the sound of boots crunching over snow. The taste of mulled wine…. hmmmm.

Favourite flower? Calla lily – it’s very sensous 🙂

Favourite fruit? Raspberries

Love is? Want, not need. Give, not receive. Cherish, not grieve.

My nominees are:

And now my son is home for the weekend so I’m going to spend some time with him, fingers crossed there’ll be no genetics coursework for me to review this evening. Tomorrow morning is a different matter…..

My brain is…. a walnut!

One of the only parts of my body that hasn’t been poked, prodded, examined or scanned is my head. Personally I think it ought to be examined but the medics say there’s no need…. they would think very differently if they could see what goes on in there. I think my brain looks something like this photo (courtesy of Flickr). It’s wrinkly, has two hemispheres and lots of nooks and crannies where a multitude of random thoughts and chaotic images sulk around waiting for the most inappropriate moment to come to light.

Like the image of the sun shining brightly outside my bedroom window that caused me to wake up just before 3am this morning. I’m short-sighted so couldn’t see the time, I could barely find my way out of bed across the room to open the curtains. Once I’d established my bearings it didn’t take long to discover the sun does not shine at 3am, birds do not contemplate the dawn chorus and anyone without a walnut for a brain is still sound asleep.

Having returned to the safety of my duvet for a while I woke up a couple of hours later to find myself participating in another of the walnut’s favourite games…. the What have I done with ________? game. Recently the ______ has included: my mobile phone, the cats’ breakfast, my contact lenses, the laundry basket full of clean laundry, my notebook, my walking boots and the toothpaste. Everything except my contact lenses has been safely recovered but my cats remain to be convinced of my trustworthiness when it comes to their food. Fortunately the walnut managed to prevent me eating the cats’ breakfast; Kitekat megamix fish in jelly doesn’t really go with green tea and a banana first thing in the morning. My stomach would definitely offer feedback if I tried that combination.

I believe it’s possible that my brain has always been a walnut, but I think it’s shrivelled appearance and slightly dodgy colour is more than likely a result of FEC. I can’t swear categorically that all its deviant behaviour is due to chemical infiltration because the truth is, it used to do some very strange things without so much as a hint of drugs or alcohol. But I can report that it’s a whole heap stranger today than it was a few months ago and it would easily beat a barrel of eels in a ‘Guinness book of slipperiness’ contest.

For all its imperfections, my walnut brain has managed to see me through completion of the final two modules of my degree course this year. The first module was pre-FEC but covered the period from my diagnosis through to surgery options. Overall the walnut coped reasonably well, I managed a good pass in both the coursework and the exam. The second module (that dictates the honours class for the degree), spanned the period from just before surgery through to FEC2. With a bit of extra effort and an extension for one of the coursework assignments my little walnut managed to keep going in spite of distractions – such as teaching my left arm to take over when my right side was temporarily dysfunctional in the summer.

I was, however, concerned about the exam for the final module. By the time FEC2 came and went the walnut had a significant amount of extra work to do, not least of which was keeping my physical body alive and operational during several episodes of what can only be described as the medical equivalent of arsenic poisoning. I suspected the What have I done with _____? game might have taken its toll on my ability to put forward a coherent, reasoned argument in 3500 words complete with citations and references.

Whether it was luck, sheer bloody-mindedness, the raw power of walnut or a combination of the three I do not know. But I learned today that I successfully passed the exam for my final module and was only 5 marks off a first in spite of all the chemical chaos. With any luck this means my Christmas present is an upper second class honours degree to mark the culmination of three years part-time study on top of a more than full-time job. Not bad for someone whose brain is a pickled walnut!